Two Year Traniversary

This morning at 8:22am I texted my wife to wish her a Happy Tranniversary.  Two years ago our lives changed as she stepped out of the shadows.  It’s humbling to think about how much has happened in consideration of how little time has passed. It’s also tremendous to realize how long some of these days …

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4/20

Five years ago today, Katie asked me to marry her. As I look through our engagement photos, their luster seems dulled, clouded in the reality of who my wife in them really was at the time. In retrospect, we were so happy sharing the mutual discomfort of being professionally photographed. But were we really happy? It's …

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Walking through the Woods

Today feels very strange. It’s our 3-year wedding anniversary, a day most people celebrate. I married Kyle, not Katie. Although I see Katie in the images from our wedding now, the smiles in the photos, the laughter and the joy, are tainted. Dysphoria spilled coffee on our images together and time has altered them from …

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What If

On Wednesday last week, Katie's hormone dose was doubled and her doctor prescribed testosterone blockers. The rate at which Katie will feminize physically is going to get faster and I'm terrified. As Katie and I lay in bed on Sunday, reflecting on our weekend, a familiar stream of consciousness brought me to tears. What if I …

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5 months and Stitch Fix

5-months ago today, I sat on my couch and asked my husband if his shaved face, painted nails, secret depression and hair growth meant something. 6 months ago I was married to a man and now I am married to a woman. Time flies when your marriage is going through a gender-identity crisis. In other …

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