Amongst many things I am struggling with in the transition process, finding shoes that actually fit Katie's ginormous, male feet is one of the more baffling mysteries so far. It is very, very difficult to find shoes that are feminine and made for larger feet. Try it. Go find them and tell me what you see. …
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Small, Beautiful Things
Last night, a friend texted and asked how she should address Katie when she mails us their wedding invitation. My friends never cease to amaze me with their capacity for support and understanding. I am incredibly lucky. Also last night, I sat on the couch with Katie after her support group as she detailed the …
Thanksgiving: Meeting Katie
Not many people can say they have met their spouse twice and had them be totally different people, but I can. I know that my spouse is the same human (in theory) that I met in the beginning, but I'm still in the process of trying to marry those two images together. The man I …
Red Lips
I am asked frequently by those who care about me how I'm doing. I never know what to tell them. I've actually started sending them a link to this blog because it helps explain a small glimmer of what I'm going through. That said, if I were ever going to epitomize this experience through one …
The Kid Question
Katie and I have always been on the fence about kids. I think this is more of a "resistance to letting go of our freedom as adults with a healthy combined income that would rather travel and not be saddled by a family yet" thing. When we were first dating, Katie was very confident in …
Office Holiday Party
This week is my office holiday party. Yes, it's in January and I'm not certain as to why although I could guess that budget has something to do with it. I'm really looking forward to it. I work with the best people! They are so fun and everyone (with few exceptions) works hard and plays …
New Years Eve 2017
At the beginning of December, I told a dear friend that we needed to get breakfast so I could tell her everything that has been going on. Every person I tell presents a perplexing amount of fear at the possibilities on how they will react. This friend in particular had commented twice on how odd …
Fixer Upper
Today was a low day. I can't really pinpoint why, but I woke up grumpy and unmotivated and my usual trick of listening to upbeat music, eating chocolate, and smiling the entire drive to work didn't uplift my spirits. I was going to attend the transgender group therapy session with Katie (twice a month it's …
The Outing: Parents Edition
It's amazing how much we have been through in the past 3 months when I reflect back on it. Every week, every day really seems to present a new question we cannot answer and a set of anxiety along with it. This week, among many things, we have been predominantly occupied by whether to go …
My HRT Introduction
Yesterday, we met the doctor who sees over 650 patients, most of them children, who will see Katie through a hormonal transformation. There is so much irony in realizing my spouse will be returning to a teenage, emotional hell-hole while we talk to a doctor who see mostly teenage, emotional hell-holes. Queue the song Teenage …
Shaved Legs
I want to start by saying that I plan to practice she/her pronouns and using my wife's female name going forward. I need to let go of my husband, a fact that I struggle with daily and have decided to just face in all of it's absolute pain. Mostly, I do feel that using husband …
Planning to Plan a Funeral
I got back from visiting my family in Texas on Monday night very late. I can honestly say I don't recall ever dreading to come home as much as I did this trip. After a few days with my family, or anywhere really, I'm always ready to come home and re-immerse myself in cooking my …
An Introduction: The Outing
On September 9, 2017 I woke up hungover. I had been out the night before with friends until an hour that was later than preferred. Gin and soda with lime: so wonderful in the moment and so awful the next day. Kyle went to get me a breakfast sandwich from Starbucks, a routine that I …
"T" is for Trans 